Waiting, Waiting, Waiting

The excitement is building. We’re starting to look around at homes for sale. We sold our house in California two years ago. So, it already seems like we’ve done a lot of waiting. But we still have about 3-4 months left before we can make any offers. In some ways, I think these next few months will seem like the longest period of waiting!

We were seriously thinking about building a home because right now home builders are offering incredible incentives. But, before taking more steps in this direction, we decided to look at existing homes on the market. Our goal wasn’t to find a house just yet, since it’s still premature for us to buy, but to just compare existing homes with the new homes being offered.

We should have never done this. We found the most beautiful house, on the most perfect lot. I’ve never seen anything else like this come close to our price range. And, to make matters worse, it’s also in our favorite neighborhood. Ugh. Why does it have to be so perfect?

Now I’m sitting here, sick, absolutely sick, because of the fact that someone else will likely come waltzing by and snatch it up. Our realtor already found out that another family is seriously considering it but hasn’t made an offer yet.

This morning I had a conversation with Kevin about it. I called him at work and told him that I couldn’t help but obsess over it all morning. I tried not to think about it but it was impossible. It backs up to a horse farm and has a creek running next to it. It’s an amazing property. Kevin kept telling me, “Amy, don’t think about how beautiful it is. Instead, think that the creek probably has mosquitoes and it probably smells like barnyard waste in the summer because of the horses.”

I’d already tried that. It didn’t help. At all.

Kevin, although he fully sympathizes, also reminded me that, in heaven, it won’t matter what house we live in or what the backyard looks like. What will matter is that we were good stewards of our resources. If the house is still on the market in three months, then God will have taught us a lesson about patience and His provision. If it’s not available, then maybe God wants us to learn more about being content with what He gives. Either way, we have to be wise with our money. And, either way, God is sovereign and will take care of us.

Then I offered to give Kevin all my birthday money (which I still haven’t spent, although each dollar has definitely been earmarked) and I also offered to spend no money for the next ten years, except for basic groceries and gas. Then I questioned whether we really do have to use our tax refund to contribute to the Roth IRA. (How boring is that!)

Then … I apologized for putting all this pressure on my husband. He is right. We have to trust God’s timing. We have to wait.

But I hate waiting!!!